You can unlearn their stories

It’s real easy for me to seek outside myself for the answers.

What should I wear?
What should I say?
What books should I read?
What should I eat?
What course should I take?
Who should I follow?
What should I study?
Who should I trust?

My questions all some version of “What’s the right thing to do?”

One of my biggest drivers is to not be wrong.

In that state, I was at the mercy of everyone else while simultaneously reinforcing the (total BS, but very real) story that I can’t be trusted.

Here’s what I learned to do

Step 1 – I redefined “right”

For me, what’s “right” is what feels good for me at the moment.

My inner protector immediately said, “Absolutely not. We cannot trust ourselves with what feels good.” 👈🏻That’s part of our patriarchal programming.

I listened and acknowledged their fears. “You’re right. It is scary. And, it is going to be super fucking uncomfortable until it’s not and that’s okay. We’re going to be with it together. I’m going to be with you and we’re going to learn how to move with the discomfort and fear.”

And we did.
And we are.

Step 2 – Practice the ask

I ask myself + my body what she wants. Wants to eat, wants to wear, wants to read, wants to study, wants to do at this moment.

I ask her if and how she wants to move, when she wants to wake up, when she wants breaks, who she wants to work with and what she wants to do for fun.

Step 3 – I communicate with her + take action on her desires

Sometimes we take action right away and sometimes it’s later that day and sometimes we negotiate to a different day.

I practice trusting her by letting her lead.

And, sometimes I find myself wanting to ask someone if they think I should take a course or hire a coach or take a program or buy the book and in those moments, I smile and I pause.

I remind myself who I am and what I know and I seek an answer from the only person who knows what I want.


Now I DO believe in external support.

It’s important + necessary.

The support I invest in is support that helps ME tap into MY answers.

Why? Because I’m fucking brilliant about me.

Just like YOU are fucking brilliant about YOU and anyone who has told you differently (even if it’s you) is lying.

They are likely lying because they love you and are trying to keep you safe. And they are lying about you.

You can unlearn the stories.
You can heal your relationship with your reflection.
You can come safely home to who you really are.

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Why am I so tired?


I don’t understand why I’m so tired…

For years, I needed to find a reason to explain the way I felt. ⁣
ESPECIALLY if the way I felt meant that I didn’t want to work. ⁣
🙋‍♀️ Do you relate?⁣
It was as though the fact that I was feeling tired wasn’t a good enough reason to rest, so I needed to search for some sort of justification. ⁣
I see this a lot with entrepreneurs. ⁣
✅ We have so many tasks⁣
✅ We have multiple things we want to accomplish⁣
✅ There are an unending amount of items to check-off our to do lists⁣
So if we feel *anything* other than work-driven, accomplish all the things, get it done right now, urgent energy…⁣
We feel less than⁣
And in order to soothe the guilt that we feel for feeling tired, we search for the justification. ⁣
It is okay for us to rest if we’re sick. We can give ourselves permission to take time off if (and only if) we are ill. ⁣
But what if we ARE tired + we’re NOT sick? ⁣
What if we’re NOT running a fever?⁣
What if we don’t have the flu?⁣
➡️ What if we want to rest because we are exhausted — even if we aren’t able to justify why? ⁣
➡️ What if we felt like we had permission to listen to our bodies without explaining to ourselves or anybody else why we want to do that? ⁣
I know it’s not easy to do because I know that society teaches us something 𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 different. ⁣
Society teaches us that rest is for weak people + reminds us that we can sleep when we’re dead and tells us to just push through and calls us forward to work harder + set bigger goals and GO GO GO GO! ⁣
And society teaches women that they can’t trust themselves or the needs of their bodies and that if we do, we need to have a justifiable explanation. ⁣
So of course we believe we have to explain how we feel. ⁣
👉🏻 There’s nothing wrong with you if you’re not able to rest “guilt-free”. ⁣
👉🏻 The guilt we experience is a normal, conditioned response. ⁣
👉🏻 Your response is a reaction to the programming of our don’t stop can’t stop culture. ⁣
And it’s part of the reason that many of the women I know and work with are…⁣
▪️On the verge of burnout⁣
▪️In desperate need of a break⁣
▪️Struggling with autoimmune disease⁣
▪️Stressed out⁣
▪️Not asking for help⁣
▪️Telling themselves they can’t slow down⁣
▪️Convinced that nothing will get done if they don’t do it ⁣
▪️Dismissing their own dreams + desires⁣
☝🏻All of it makes sense. ⁣
Until we detox from the programming that has trained us to believe that our work equals our worth, it will not be okay for us to rest. ⁣
The switch is not easy (it took me years!) and for many of us with cultural, generational, and individual traumas, it’s more complex.⁣
You can begin the process by honoring your body‘s feelings without asking her to justify them.⁣

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Happy New Year!

I want you to know that it is okay if…⁣

▪️You haven’t yet figured out your 2022 word of the year⁣
▪️You did not begin a new workout routine or go for a walk today⁣
▪️You haven’t thought about — let alone mapped out your goals for the new year⁣
▪️You haven’t reflected on last years wins + lessons⁣
▪️You haven’t begun the journey of completely reinventing yourself⁣

 It is okay if you have. ⁣

The point isn’t to check off boxes of what people who you think have their shit together do during the last week of December + the first day of January. ⁣
The point is to slow down + check in. ⁣
▪️What feels good to YOU in this moment?⁣
▪️What choice feels in alignment with how YOU want to feel?⁣
▪️What do YOU want right now?⁣
I promise you, the practice of spending quiet time with yourself, checking in + giving yourself what YOU need has more power to transform your life than a word of the year. ⁣
Also, social media is convincing you that everybody else is doing something everybody isn’t doing. ⁣
Try following YOUR lead. ⁣
And allow yourself to change directions. ⁣
A lot. ⁣
Every day is the beginning of a new year. ⁣
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Is it safe for you to choose you?


If I abandon my authentic self in an attempt to be chosen, even if they choose me… ⁣

I will KNOW it wasn’t me they chose. ⁣

☝🏻This can lead to anger, resentment, sadness + depression. ⁣

Here’s how it showed up for me…⁣

▪️I didn’t set or honor my boundaries ⁣
▪️I felt obligated to say yes when I wanted to say no ⁣
▪️I was afraid to slow down — let alone stop⁣
▪️I was demanding perfection from myself⁣
▪️I was using my inner critic as my main motivator ⁣
▪️I sacrificed myself, my needs, my desires⁣
▪️I had no hobbies ⁣
▪️I stopped playing ⁣
▪️I stopped dreaming ⁣
▪️I wasn’t sleeping well⁣
▪️I felt low-grade sick all the time⁣
▪️I fluctuated between sad + resentful ⁣

I was stuck in a matrix of my own making; the pattern perpetuating the story that who I was as I was simply was not good enough. ⁣

The cycle of self-abandonment in search of love + approval was never going to be fulfilling because when they loved me, they loved who I wasn’t. ⁣

Why do we do this?

Because we are smart + adaptive human beings with brilliant brains designed to keep us alive. ⁣

We learn how to get our needs met. ⁣

Once I understood that I was living my life in response to the traumas I experienced, in protection of them ever happening again, adapting for my survival… ⁣

I wanted to shout from the rooftops, “From now on, I’m choosing me!” 

No longer did I want to live life stuck in the cycle of self-abandonment. ⁣

Let’s DO this! ⁣

I was ready. ⁣

Yet I resisted. ⁣

For years. ⁣

I knew what to do + I wasn’t doing it. ⁣⁣

Gahhhhhh!!!! What is wrong with me???

I must have asked that question a few thousand times. ⁣

Here’s the answer if you’re asking the same… ⁣

Not one damn thing. ⁣

Nothing was wrong with me + nothing is wrong with you. ⁣

Boldly declaring, “I choose me!” will feel terrifying to a system who has survived by doing the opposite for most of its life. ⁣

You may know that you NEED TO make a new choice. ⁣

You may know that you WANT TO. ⁣

But until your internal systems… ⁣

Until your body feels safe to do so… ⁣

You won’t. ⁣

Friend, I’m telling you from experience, you cannot — you will not — willpower your way out of this one. ⁣


✅ You can learn how to create safety from the inside out⁣
✅ You can cultivate self-trust ⁣
✅ You can heal your relationship with your reflection⁣
✅ You can come home to yourself ⁣

And when you do, you will no longer feel the need to chase the choosing + change to be chosen.⁣

This is the work I practice. ⁣
This is the work I teach. ⁣


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Your Body’s Needs


I got sick 2 days before Christmas.

Getting sick was NOT in my calendar. ⁣

In the past, I would have pushed through. ⁣

I would have forced my body to do the things I had scheduled because I used to believe that my schedule was more important than my body’s needs.⁣

This time, I surrendered. ⁣

My body’s needs became my schedule. ⁣

I listened as she said, “Michelle, we’re not well and we need to rest.” 

I said, “Okay.” and I slept. ⁣

I did nothing other than rest. ⁣

I had brief moments of consciousness + then I would go back to sleep. ⁣

For 2 days I didn’t answer texts or calls, I cancelled appointments + plans with family, I didn’t read or do any work. ⁣

I just slept. ⁣

I didn’t try to force her into action and I didn’t shame her for messing up my plans. ⁣

I gave her what she needed and today she woke up feeling better. ⁣

And when I woke up, I didn’t tell her she needed to get to work to “make up for the time off”. ⁣

Which I used to do.⁣

Instead, I have trusted her + I have allowed her to lead. ⁣

What does she want? We do that. ⁣

After 3 days “off”, I have allowed her to sit outside, read, write, paint, play guitar, and move at her pace.⁣

Here’s what I know…⁣

When we give our body what she needs but then tell her she “owes” us for the missed time, we are shaming ourselves for the nurturing we needed. ⁣

The love and care we showed were conditional. ⁣

When we do this, over time, we train ourselves to believe that it’s easier to not give ourselves what we need because we always feel like sh*t afterward. ⁣

The shame is why we feel like sh*t. ⁣

We’re conditioned to believe that we should feel bad because we “indulged” in time off. ⁣

This perpetuates the lie that taking care of ourselves is a vacation of sorts and therefore something we need to earn. ⁣

It’s BS. ⁣

What if there was no “making up for lost time”? ⁣

What if the time wasn’t lost? ⁣

What if we met ourselves in this present moment and made a choice in this present moment of what it is we desire + moved from that place without the pressure and punishment of what we chose the days prior? ⁣

If you’re in the cycle of working to the point of exhaustion, taking time off because you are sick and have no other choice + then beating yourself up for taking the time off and forcing yourself to work overtime to “make up” for the time you took off, you’re like most of the women I work with. ⁣

I get it. ⁣

I functioned that way for years. I thought it was normal.⁣

And I guess it is normal in a society where we are conditioned to believe that slowing down is weak + that our work equals our worth. ⁣

☝🏻 This is why we have humans who fear falling behind, who are scared of silence and terrified of the consequences of choosing sacred self-care over work. ⁣

The belief that both can live together feels like a fantasy. And a risky one at that. ⁣

Detoxing yourself from the programming that profits from you working in fear can take time. ⁣

It’s a practice friends. ⁣

Realizing you’re in the pattern in the first step. ⁣


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“I’m a good person who is in service to others”

If our needs are unmet as children, we can develop a belief that we are unworthy of being taken care of.    

We create this belief because as small children, we think that everything happening in our environment is a reflection of us.⁣

So if our needs are unmet, we make it mean that it’s happening because there is something wrong with us.

When I say “unmet needs”, that might have been your physical needs (things like healthcare, proper clothing, hunger, thirst, etc.) but it also applies to your emotional needs (things like safety, stability, security, unconditional love, acceptance, validation and affirmation of your belonging + worthiness). ⁣

⁣Our brain is wired for survival and therefore if our needs are unmet, it will feel life-threatening. ⁣

Because we are incredibly resilient, when this happens, we tap into our creative problem-solving muscle. ⁣

We humans will do whatever we need to do in order to survive. ⁣

So if we feel unsafe, unlovable, unimportant, invalid and/or unworthy, we will figure out ways to get those things we desire, even if we have to manipulate ourselves or others in order to make it happen. ⁣

Again, we are creative + innovative like that. ⁣

I’ve been reflecting a lot recently and one of the biggest realizations + healings I have had has been around self-sacrifice labeled as “I am a good person in service to others”. ⁣

When that part of me was leading, I didn’t realize how much pressure I was putting on those that I claimed to love by NOT taking care of myself.

⁣I didn’t realize that I had been functioning, stuck inside of a trauma response where I believed my safety was at risk. 

I didn’t recognize that I had been unconsciously operating from the belief that my needs were invalid.

I couldn’t see that I was an adult who was being led by an inner child with unmet needs.

So I overworked, I pushed myself beyond my capacity, and I didn’t uphold my boundaries because this wounded part of me believed that I was unworthy, but thought if I were to do a good enough job taking care of everyone else, I might be taken care of.

The people that I loved the most were the most stressed out and worried about me as they watched me destroy myself + declare I was doing it for them. ⁣

The moment I recognized what was happening I began to shift. ⁣

The journey wasn’t always easy because there was a lot of healing that needed to happen, but what I know is that I was — I AM worth it. ⁣

So are you. ⁣

I’m worth the time it has taken + I’m worth the practice. ⁣

So are you. ⁣

We humans are programmed for survival so it makes sense that we will do whatever we can to ensure that survival. ⁣

And, I do not need to choose to live how I was conditioned. ⁣

Neither do you.⁣

You can learn to neutrally observe what is happening. ⁣
You can learn to explore with curiosity and a desire to understand.
You can decide what you want to experience. ⁣
You can learn to take new actions. 
You can learn to meet your own needs without blaming anyone else.
⁣You can heal your relationship with your reflection.


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Who am I if I’m not doing?


I was a zero sum thinker. ⁣



𝗮𝗱𝗷𝗲𝗰𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲⁣ – relating to or denoting a situation in which whatever is gained by one side is lost by the other.⁣

My thinking, the byproduct of my wounded masculine, patriarchal programming had me convinced that life was a competition with only 1 winner. ⁣

Which meant, whoever wasn’t winning was losing. ⁣

And I was terrified of losing.⁣

So I had to compete. ⁣

And competition meant doing whatever it took. ⁣

This manifested in my life in many different ways. ⁣

✅ Burnout⁣
✅ An inability to relax
✅ People-pleasing⁣
✅ Mistrust of myself + others — especially women⁣
✅ Overworking⁣
✅ Self-sacrifice⁣
✅ Perfectionism⁣
✅ Over-serving⁣
✅ A need to “rescue” others⁣
✅ Insecurities⁣
✅ Paranoia around being found out⁣
✅ A commitment to self-protection + preservation. ⁣

Can you relate? ⁣

I couldn’t ever relax because there was always the potential for an attack. ⁣

At any moment, someone could come along and take from me what I had worked so hard to earn.

And that was terrifying. ⁣

So I had to be “ON” all the time. ⁣

If my guard was ever down, I could lose everything. ⁣

The thing I didn’t see until it was almost too late is that the way I was operating was already costing me everything. ⁣

If you had told me a year ago that the way I’m living now was possible I wouldn’t of believed you because I didn’t fully trust myself. ⁣

➡️ I didn’t trust myself to slow down.⁣
➡️ I didn’t trust myself to relax.⁣
➡️ I didn’t trust myself to take time off.⁣
➡️ I didn’t trust myself to not be doing.⁣

I didn’t trust myself with myself.⁣

And now? ⁣

Well, I was inspired to write this as I sat down to eat some brunch that I made for myself, eating food that I wasn’t allowing myself to eat a year ago, reading + relaxing after playing with my dogs + laughing. ⁣

There’s music in the background + I was dancing around my kitchen. ⁣

By myself. ⁣

And I thought… Fuck. This is so good. And year ago, I would’ve gotten up, resentful + in pain, eaten something mindlessly + started working. ⁣

Not because anyone said I had to, but because I was afraid of who I’d BE if I wasn’t DOING. ⁣

I know you get it. And maybe think this sounds good, but you’re managing just fine. ⁣

Me too. ⁣
I was badass. ⁣

A bad ass who was slowly destroying herself + calling it service. ⁣

In the meantime, you keep calling it what helps get you through the day + you call me when you’re ready to step out of force and into your authentic power. ⁣


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Winning at all costs

I spent much of my life rushing to a finish line that didn’t exist + while missing the journey that did⁣

I was working for my worthiness like it was a thing waiting for me at the end of my never-ending to do list ⁣

Earlier this year, my body let me know she was done tolerating what she’d been tolerating (amazingly well!) for so many years ⁣

She got sick⁣

My diet had to be completely overhauled, I was in adrenal fatigue + I was realllllll close to walking myself right into an Autoimmune Disease ⁣

See, one of my programmed patterns is to fight — push though⁣

If you’re like me, I know you get it ⁣

I learned this probably in a similar way you learned it… ⁣

By watching + listening to my parents, teachers, leaders + society in general preach the “Work Harder! Do More! Perform Better! Be Stronger!  Win at all costs! There’s only ONE seat at the table!” battle cry⁣

But the ones who sacrificed the most…⁣

They never really won or got that seat because the game they were playing was unending – never over⁣

But that didn’t stop me from trying to be the ONE – the winner they spoke about ⁣

☝🏻 F * * K     T H A T⁣

I could have killed myself and our “perform for your worthiness patriarchal culture” would have stepped right over my dead body + kept on moving ⁣


➡️ l needed to learn that I already had that seat I was hoping to earn ⁣

➡️ I needed to learn to choose me instead of waiting to be chosen by them ⁣

➡️ I needed to learn that getting things done was more important than me doing things ⁣

➡️ I needed to learn that collaboration is better than competition ⁣

➡️ I needed to learn that a table with only one seat is a table built on fear⁣

➡️ I needed to learn that rest is as — if not more — important than work⁣

➡️ I needed to learn how to slow down ⁣

➡️ I needed to learn that it could be safe to slow down + I needed to do the work to make it safe⁣ in my body

☝🏻 Those are practices ⁣

Those are practices I practice daily + they are practices I share with the entrepreneurial women I coach ⁣

Look, I get it⁣

⁣It’s hard to relax⁣⁣

You feel guilty + lazy because there’s so much you should be + could be doing⁣

And even on those days where you do choose to take it easy you end up feeling worse than you did before you took the day off so you promise yourself you won’t do that again anytime soon⁣

You tell yourself that you’ll rest after this thing is done or after you take care of this one more task, but there’s always one more task⁣

You tell yourself + others that you’re at the bottom of your to do list when the truth is you’re not even on it ⁣

I know what you’re afraid of⁣

👉🏻 You’re scared if you stop you won’t start up again⁣

👉🏻 You don’t trust yourself or your body ⁣

👉🏻 You’re afraid of losing your edge⁣

It makes sense⁣

After all, this work ethic is why you’re so successful⁣

(or maybe I’m the only one who thought those things + felt that way)⁣

The truth is, my work HAS changed⁣

No longer do I subscribe to the belief that hard work itself makes me intrinsically virtuous or worthy of reward <– as the definition of work ethic explains


That doesn’t mean I don’t work well – I do

Since making these personal transformations…

✅ I’m more productive⁣

✅ I’m more focused ⁣

✅ I’m more creative ⁣

✅ I’m more inspired ⁣

✅ I’m more organized ⁣

✅ I’m more fluid ⁣

☝🏻 And that’s not all…⁣

✅ I begin my days with me, not with work⁣

✅ My sleep patterns + sleep schedule are more consistent ⁣

✅ I have created + upheld boundaries around my time + my calendar

✅ I say “No” without apologizing, guilt + self-shame

✅ I go on weekly dates with my wife ⁣

✅ I play with my puppies ⁣

✅ I go for walks ⁣

✅ I take breaks + naps

✅ I practice yoga ⁣

✅ I practice meditation⁣

✅ I have created rituals I use throughout the day that allow me to remain in the present moment

✅ I’ve stopped multi-tasking (as much 😉)⁣

✅ I am doing what I want to do ⁣

✅ My body is healthy⁣

Friend, if you’ve got yourself convinced that your unrelenting discipline is serving you, I get it⁣

For years you could not have convinced me otherwise + I have no interest in convincing you, but if you’re tired of feeling exhausted, tense, resentful, stressed out, anxious, secretly out of control while pretending to be in control, overwhelmed + in pain, comment below or send me an email

There’s another way⁣
I promise⁣


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what’s your motivation?


it is super easy for us to judge others based on the things we see them doing (or not)…
we often judge based on comparisons of what WE like and what is working or has worked for US…
things like:
+ how they care for themselves
+ their work ethic
+ their relationship to food or alcohol
+ how and whom they date
+ their sex life and choice of partner(s)
+ how much rest they get
+ how frequently they workout or meditate
+ how they manage or cope with their stress
many of these things we are judging could be based on things THEY have said they were having issues with
we’re just trying to help
i get it
i’ve been on the side of wanting to help (fix) others + I’ve been the one doing the thing that others wanted to help (fix) me with
here’s what i’ve learned…
it’s less about WHAT one is doing and more about WHY they are doing it
+ i’ve not taken care of myself out of fear and over-serving for approval AND i’ve chosen to put me after someone else with intention because of a deadline and/or i knew i’d get to me later that day
+ i’ve worked HARD out of fear and a desire for approval AND i’ve worked hard for a deadline and from a place of intentional choice
+ i’ve eaten food for comfort and to numb out how i was feeling AND i’ve had the same food because i wanted it and it brought me pleasure
+ i’ve drank because i wanted to enjoy a glass of wine or bourbon AND i’ve drank because i didn’t want to feel my feelings
+ i’ve dated for fear of being alone AND dated because i wanted to spend time exploring new people
+ i’ve had sex for approval and a desire to be loved because i was afraid i wasn’t enough AND i’ve had sex because i wanted to experience the pleasure
+ i’ve stayed up all night because i was scared of getting in trouble for not finishing what i started and out of fear of being abandoned if i wasn’t “good” AND i’ve chosen to stay up because i was geeked about what i was doing + creating
+ i’ve worked out from a place of hating my body AND i’ve worked out because i love my body + want to move and stretch her
+ i’ve hidden my stress for fear of not being loved and received + i’ve spoken up for attention AND i have expressed my needs to ask for support + i’ve used my voice to be real and make authentic, vulnerable connections
in my world
it’s never about the WHAT we are doing
it’s always about the WHY
i invite you to dig deeper
with yourself + others
what you find may surprise you…
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ignoring what is doesn’t make it not


full speed ahead 24/7/365 causes crashes
i know because
i’ve been on the floor
more than once
i’ve lost my sh*t
so many times i stopped counting
i’ve cried hysterically
after screaming at the top of my lungs
when something didn’t go my way
or plans changed
i’ve been so tense my muscles
forgot how to relax
i’ve clawed at my skin
to hold down the rage
but you didn’t know
i wouldn’t let you know
on the outside
i was successful
i was achieving
i was helpful & reliable
i looked the part
i was nice
i was friendly
i was pretty & polished
on the inside
i was raging
i was short-circuiting
i was melting down
i was burning out
>> many successful women are burning out <<
it’s a badge of honor to be busy & exhausted
we brag about our lack of sleep and long hours
like they give out awards for suffering
we drink a bottle of wine a night
every night
gotta numb out
so we can function
we take pills
to stop our tears
to block our emotions
we don’t have time to open that flood gate
if we did
we doubt
it would ever close
we’ve been locked up
so long
for years
our hard work is our salvation
really our protection
disguised as our perfection
keeping us from slowing down long enough
to look at the reality of our lives
burnout doesn’t happen overnight
it’s a slow burning fuse
>> there are warnings << 

the problem is, most of us ignore them because they are so accepted and expected that we don’t recognize them for the red flags they are

we push harder
motivating ourselves with self-abuse
it’s called being an adult
we say
pull it together
put your big girl panties on
just do it
what’s wrong with you
we ask
so-and-so has it worse than you
you’re so lazy
and then we justify
it’s not that bad
everyone i know is fried
i’m too busy
i don’t have time
today is the ONLY day to get things done
look at our to-do list
he needs me
they need me
she needs me
it’s fine
i’m fine
i’m fine
first, you’re not fine
second, fine is not a feeling
let’s stop pretending
let’s look at what is REAL
ignoring what is doesn’t make it not
if you’re curious about what you might be missing, click here and grab The 31 Most Commonly Missed Signs of Burnout for Women
it’s time we reclaim our power 🔥
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